I was so ready to come back to writing regularly and blogging. I have a half dozen posts in various stages of completion in my drafts. I have another list of a dozen or so posts that I want to write. I have old posts that I want to update and do new pictures for.
But in case you haven’t noticed, I had a grand total of 2 posts in November. That’s bad. I’ve never taken a break quite like I have this year. So many changes came in our life this year.
Dustin started his new job, and I couldn’t be more proud.
We sold our house and moved into a rental and it was great for our debt plan!
I’ve been trying to find balance between the day job, my oil business, the blog, and you know…having a life still. It’s been a challenge, but once we got settled in the new house I was ready to make it happen. I had my planner, I had my plan, I was there.
And then it was 11/9.
Guys, I have been struggling real hard. I want to be my real authentic self online, that’s why I started a blog. But I know what the experts say. Keep the politics out of it. People will troll you, stop following you, or just in general hate you if you bring your personal politics into your blog.
And I’ve pretty much followed that advice. I shared one post on the blog related to advocacy and one in response to the dangerous language of most debates but that was it. And I generally was pretty happy with that.
I’ve been a little less rigid on Facebook and would show my feminist self there a lot more often. And for the most part have gotten good responses to those posts. It’s heartened me to write this post. Because I’ve been an unapologetic feminist in all areas of my life except for this blog. And for that I am truly sorry.
If you’re offended by my politics, ok. I can’t say that I’ll miss you. This is who I am, I happen to own this corner of the internet. And I am no longer going to hide that part of myself. I can’t in good conscience pretend anymore that this isn’t a huge part of my life.
I remember in high school I moved to a very conservative area of Michigan. I knew that I was one of the few people in my high school who was liberal. I knew I was one of the few people in my high school who was pro-choice. I knew I was one of the few people in my school who was LGBT. Though on that last point I’ve found there were more of us than I though, we all just kept quiet on it.
This is me. This is who I am. I was wearing a ‘This is what a feminist looks like’ tank top to school. My mom knew she might have to come get me from the office when I wore my NARAL pro-choice t-shirt. I accepted that and was proud of it.
And now I live in a world where every bad dream seems to be coming true. All of the things I am passionate about, the environment, equality, feminism, education, transparency are under attack. These are all the things that led me to homesteading in the first place.
I started to read more, watch more documentaries, and most importantly question more. I talked to people. I talked to farmers. I talked to friends. I debated with people. I studied and learned more. And what I learned was I have to take care of myself and my family first.
I have to know where my food comes from.
I have to know where my clothes come from.
I have to know what companies I am supporting with my dollars.
And now I have to be unapologetic on the blog as well. I am going through a season of transition here on the blog. And I am hoping you guys will stay with me as I do. I’m going to continue to share all our stories, my favorite recipes, my tips for being prepared.
But I won’t hold back any more.
I will be going to DC in January to protest. I have my congressman’s number saved in my phone. I’ll be using my economic vote every chance I get to support business who also support me and my friends. I hope you’ll do the same.
Someday when my kids look back at this time in our history and ask me what I did, I won’t have any shame. I’ll tell them I stood arm in arm with my brothers and sisters and protected those who needed it. That I stood up to those who need it. And that I was honest and unapologetic in every aspect of my life.
I don’t fear people who disagree with me, I don’t hate them or think they’re terrible people. I’m scared for them, I hope that in some small way knowing me will open up their minds to different perspectives. And I’m never afraid to genuinely debate policy with people.
But this blog will always be a safe place. I will continue my policy of deleting cruel or hateful comments. Luckily those have been few and far between over the last few years. And hopefully that will continue to be the case.
I stand in solidarity with my LGBT friends, with Muslims, immigrants, men and women of color, with all levels of income and education! I refuse to bow to hate, and I will stand up and fight every step of the way those people who would do our country harm. I made the vow to protect my country from all threats foreign and domestic and while I may no longer wear the uniform I still hold that vow to be true.
I hope you guys understand that this is who I am, and this is what I have to do. I hope you’ll stand with me. I hope you’ll feel safe here to share your thoughts and ideas for how we can move forward together. I know that love will trump hate.
If you’ve been overwhelmed for the last month I hope you find comfort and find your inner activist. I’ve got some great resources and organizations tagged below that are fantastic. Donate, volunteer, call your representatives, sign petitions, talk to your neighbors, talk to your family, advocate, be respectful, be kind to one another. Be good to yourself!